Wednesday May 22 2013
Somehow I've come to assume that my family shall fulfill all the duties and expectations of some quint essential happy hallmark movie household…
Children who joyfully (and somewhat quietly) skip around singing & dancing, and of course happily pick up after themselves.
A mother who's always smiling as she bakes never ending pies and throws lavish tea parties.
And a father with a cheerful disposition who always has time for a chat or a walk.
…right. So um then I wake up.
Ugh, wouldn't it seem easy to give love to a perfect family. I have a beautiful family, don't mistake me! But we live in a fallen world, I know. And that perfection is not come yet. Besides, there's a lot for me to learn in this current imperfect situation.
Truly loving someone; being patient with a person whom you're convinced is being absolutely ridiculous..well, to me that is nearly impossible. Tension, argument, anger all seem inevitable as I grasp at vain attempts to prove myself "the better person".
Then I hear the Spirit tell me,
"This is not of your own strength, nor was it meant to be. You need me Hannah".
This kind of faithful patience comes only through Jesus and His Holy Spirit as He works and speaks through me. Again I am humbled. All that work to muster the strength to be patient, to love through my own efforts… and all I had to do was take a deep breath and turn it over to Him.
Refine me Lord, through the flame.
Oh that the Grace of God would teach me.
Grant me a heart willing to learn.
To learn how to really love.
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